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Dear Black,

So much on my mind regarding you, or who you could be the last couple of days.  Could you be W?  Could you be L?  I had good conversation with L, and W seemed like he was falling back a bit.  When I take the body of my interactions with W, it seems like he's a little jealous.  He is younger than me.  I don't know if he likes me.  And it's funny how things set up.  We were not even supposed to go out there this past Sunday.  We planned to practice outside at Nickajack Park, but it rained so much that the field was too soggy, so we had indoor batting practice.  This Sunday, it is going to rain, so we will not be outside, and I'll get to see W again.  I mean, could he be you?  The string of events is making me wonder.  If he's you, then I want the universe to make it obvious to me.  If he's you, and you like me, too, then I don't want you to think that I don't like you.  I wanted things to be as regular as possible.  I know how I get when I like someone.  I get anxious and uptight.  I just wanted things to be regular.  I didn't wanna do anything out of the ordinary.  I came to do batting practice and work on my swing.  I made it a point to speak to him, but there was no time for conversation.  Then came L.  He and I had a lot of conversation.  During the practice, after the practice, and at the Hideaway.  I just sent him a friend request on FB.  I hope he accepts.  Both W and L give me very good vibes.  They seem like good people who work hard, and have good spirits.  That's the kind of guy you are.  I have no idea what you look like.  That's the last piece of the puzzle.  I'm getting closer to you though.  You're getting closer and closer to me.  I don't wanna miss it.  You could be W, or you could be L, or you could be someone else entirely.  I see since I started writing these letters, i'm meeting guys who have good spirits, and can hold conversations.  That is something I look for.  That is just one thing that I thought you would have.  Your spirit would be great; you can converse with me.  L and I play in the league, so we have that in common.  And W makes a comment about "You guys have a lot of stories."  W also made a comment about me going to see someone (which ended being Maudretta for Sunday brunch).  He said "that's right you're gonna go see someone".  L just accepted my friends request.  We'll see what happens.  I see the universe setting things up.  The events are happening in sequence.  I know it's not forced, and it's not in our control.  It's just happening naturally.  That's how I know I'm getting closer to you.  That's how I know you are gonna be so perfect and we're gonna be happier together than we already are apart.  We're gonna have things in common.  Push each other to be better.  I'm getting excited about you.  I think I may have met you.  The onion just has to peeled back layer by layer with both of us, and then we will see.  That's when the universe will reveal you to me.  The feeling is blissful, and happy.  The universe is gonna reveal me to you, and you to me.  And that's gonna be a great day.  I can't wait.

LOVE, NATE