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Letter 10

I'm watching it again, and it's going to bring me to tears again  I want what he got.  Simon got Bram.  I'm looking for Bram.  Is T you?  He's got someone.  He's coming at me hard.  It's just flirting.  I like to be liked.  Maybe that's the lesson in this.  Can't like someone because they like you, and C is on my page.  I'm sure he's seeing it all.  I wonder what he's thinking.  I don't desire an open relationship.  I want me and you.  T wants to be open with C.  And I've become part of it.  How do I separate the flirting from the real thing?  I've always knows that he liked me.  He's just getting more open about it.  I still want you.  What if he is you?  What if T is you?  The Universe does not look at situations.  It arranges everything perfectly.  Here I am crying again.  Because I know when I find you, I'm gonna shed the same tears of joy.  The mystery just continues to deepen.  I don't know who you are or where you are.  I wonder if I already know you.  Could you be T?  Could you be W?  Come on Uni.  Show me who Black is.  I'm ready.  I'm ready to receive so now you've gotta show me who Black is.  Who is this lover that I have dreamed of?  Who is this guy that I have fallen in love with?  This letter is to the Universe.  I wanna know who you are.  I know when you show me, it will all fall into place.  That's all.  I'm grateful that I can write these letters and know that you are taking inventory.  I know that you will act on my behalf, and I'm grateful for that.  I'm grateful that I can wholly know that you, the Universe, will never send me someone who will hurt me.  You, the Universe, will never send me someone who has bad intentions.  This letter should be to Black, but this is about Black.  Black is my dream guy.  Now every guy that I talk to in depth I get to question and wonder if he's black, and honestly this is fun.   Till next time

LOVE, BLACK