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Good morning Black,

It's a rainy day outside but I feel sunny on the inside.  We're going to have our softball team dinner today.  I'm grateful to be on a team that does more than just play in the field.  We're doing toy drives and charity functions.  Isn't that what life is?  Giving.  I don't need to be at home sitting around crying like I was the last couple of days.  I blame it on the holidays, but really it's just a myriad of things.  Or what I perceive I lack.  Love.  Love doesn't come from outside of me.  It comes from within.  This is why I write to you, and I don't even know who you are.  But I know we are connecting in spirit because that's how the universe in party works.  I have to act as if I already have it.  I have love; I have happiness.  It will never be enough coming from another.  It always starts with me.  I write you because I know you are out there.  I have been so inspired by the movie "Love, Simon" because he manifested his love by coming to terms with himself, and writing Blue.  I look at so many things with that movie, but that is one thing that I get out of it.  I know it's a movie, but with the evidence that I've manifested things before, I can do it this time.  Yes I would like someone to share my life with.  I know he is you.  Not knowing who you are makes it all the more intriguing because I can fall in love with what I visualize and imagine you to be, and the kind of guy I visualize you to be. I do not know what you look like, or how you dress, or how you carry yourself, but I trust the Universe.  It will not bring me something or someone I am not ready for, and it will not bring me to someone or something that is not ready for me.  I am being prepped just for you.  You see being prepped for me.  That's why I know we are going to be a force together.  I can't wait to meet you, and I can't wait for my love for you to grow.  Our journeys have begun, first toward each other, then we will complete the journey together.  I'm enjoying the ride already.  I suppose I'll get out of bed, shower, and have breakfast.  I just wanted to write you.  Have an awesome day!!!

Love, NATE